So the easy part is done: we found out the passage is weird and
has a lot of cool stuff in it. Great. Now what?
There are several notable things in the passage, but what do they
mean? What do they represent and how do they represent it?
Start with the obvious things: the heart, the name (or lack
thereof) the repetition, and the “pregnancy.”
Typically when a character has a heart condition, it represents a
greater issue that they have struggled with. The heart is considered the center
of emotion, so usually heart troubles are symbolic of an emotional struggle or
loss of love—heartbreak.
A name is usually the chief way of defining a person. You know
them first and foremost by their name, and then by what personality traits they
have and what their role is in life. Here, we are only to determine the
personality traits in the role in the world. We have no way of defining this
character and can’t make him anything smaller than what he is by labeling him
with a name.
Additionally, what he called in the text help us to determine what
kind of person we can expect him to be: he is a writer and he is old. The term “old”
is typically associated with the terms “frail” and, on occasion, “worn.”
However, it is also associated with the word “wise.” Writers typically are
intuitive and observant; they see the same things everyone else sees, but they
view it differently. From these two descriptions alone, we have a pretty good
idea of who this old guy is: he is a frail but wise man that is intuitive and sensitive
to the human condition and observant of his surroundings.
And then there is the pregnancy, which can be looked at from two
different lenses.
On one side, the fact that he feels pregnant shows that he feels
something inside him is alive and stirring. This is a clear contrast between ages;
he is old, but something inside him is young. Additionally, he feels this thing
the most while in his bed, the time when he feels closest to death. On the
verge of death, he feels most alive. The way I interpret this is that the “young
thing” is a soul. Though his body is aging, his soul remains vibrant, and
through physical death his immortal soul can be released. His soul will be
reborn.
The other lense that we can view pregnancy through is the gender
lense, which ties the man to the very thing he feel that he is carrying.
Reading this almost feels like the old man is experiencing an identity or
gender crisis: he is male, but he feels pregnant, and the thing inside him is a
woman.
Men are considered to be rational, thinking creatures, while women
are the emotional creatures. However, this young woman is wearing a “coat of
mail, like a knight.” Where women are traditionally considered weak and
fragile, this woman is depicted as a warrior (similar to Joan of Arc, which
could be an important figure to keep in mind for the remainder of the book).
This creature living inside the old man could represent the resilience
of his soul. We already know that he probably had some emotional issues from
his heart troubles. The fact that this creature inside him—something that
exists like a soul—is female but is dressed like a knight could show how his
soul eventually overcomes struggles and, through death, is released.
Finally, the most important part of the passage is the least
obvious thing: the narrator. He is there, he is omnipresent, and from the sound
of it, he is struggling with finding the right words to tell the old man’s
story.
From the moment you determine there is a narrator you are faced
with two troubling questions: can you trust him, and why is he there in the
first place.
For me, these two questions are impossible to answer until I read
the rest of the book.
Either way, looking back on how much information is in the first
chapter of a book is startling to me; you can tell so much about what you are
going to read by just reading page one.